12WBT February Round 2015 - wrap up

In typical Emily style, I started out well blogging last round, but then I let it slide...so here's the fast forward version of my first round 'back in the saddle'!

I thoroughly enjoyed the #randomactsofexercise so much in fact that I made my own shirt in case we do it again (planning on hitting Cathy up to do another one). It was heaps of fun exercising in places I don't normally and having it filmed on my phone!

I did pretty well this round, losing a total of 9.1kgs. I forgot to do my final weigh in prior to the last night and so officially I lost 10.1 but I know I put on 1kg in the last week. 
 

This round also saw me participate in my first ever MUD challenge - Miss Muddy - with Debbie and her gorgeous girls! Don't I look confident! HA!
 

I was super excited to catch up with the beautiful Hayley and meet gorgeous Imogen for the first time while at the central coast for Miss Muddy!

Our clean BEFORE photos:

Yep, we bought team shirts...such nerds!!

AANNNDDD.......our AFTER photos:

I was a bit, well a lot excited to get my photo with some of the crew!!

And I got some cool Miss Muddy stuff, including a MEDAL! MY FIRST EVER!!!

 In the week after Miss Muddy, I got the running/jogging bug again and this was the result. A very nasty blister on the arch of my left foot which put me out of action for more than a week! It was sooo painful. But I concentrated on my food and didn't gain that week!

My unofficial end of the round photo - without the magazine and not in my undies...but 9.1kgs down!

 Week 1                                                            Week 12

One of my favourite parts of the round was getting back into Saturday SSS workouts with Debbie and rewarding ourselves with a coffee afterwards!! So delish and best company!!

So today marks the start of the May round. I've half done my preseason tasks, I'm spending 4 days in Toowoomba this week helping my brother furnish his new unit, then end of week 2 we are moving house....exciting but I've got to plan, plan, plan!!! Eating out the freezer before defrosting it while staying on track is proving a challenge but not impossible!! So here's to a new round which will hopefully see me smash out another 10kgs!!

My new love affair....

I'm completely in love. 

With an amazing machine. A Thermomix! 

I have been to two demonstrations now and while discussing it with my super amazing, wonderful husband he said 'if you want one and we can afford it, get it'. So it's ordered...it's on its way! 

In honour of our new family member I'll be dedicating a whole page to loving my Thermomix and utilising the 12WBT recipes to cook with it. Those of you who have been members before will know there are strict copyrights in place with these recipes so my intention is to assume you have the recipe and all I will post is the change in method instructions. This way I won't be doing the wrong thing by Mish who I LOVE!

My thermomix will arrive on the 19th and I'll try to start posting altered recipe methods that week but it may take some time to get the hang of it. 

Honestly I'm super duper excited about this new learning curve and the changes it will bring to cooking after a long day at work!!

Starting again...again..Part 2

Blogging is amazing really. It's what I always thought writing a journal would be like but with the added bonus that when people read it you don't have to watch their faces...not that I ever let anyone read my journals. I dread to think what I filled the pages of my teenage journal with...in any case, writing is therapeutic. It is like talking an issue out in the form of a monologue, with no-one to stop you or interrupt your train of thought.

So with this in mind, I am tackling the issue of having to start again...again with some concrete plans (again). We all stumble and fall at times, it is persistence that will get me there in the end. Stubbornness and determination that will finally see me reaching my goal - probably after I fall on my face again a few times...but I plan not to fall.

I'm following Kate Beck's 5 steps to help you lose weight 

I realised when I re-read this post that I've hitting some and missing others in this list, which is perhaps the reason I have been going round in circles like a duck paddling with only one leg. Below the surface I'm paddling as fast as I possibly can but because my other leg is 'tied up' I'm going round in circles. Time to free that leg. Honestly, I think there is a few things holding me back and there may not be 'easy' solutions but I figure I can 'fake it till I make it' as the saying goes. 

I'm good with steps 2, 3, 4 and usually 5 but 5 kinda hinges on 1. And 1 is where I fall short. I want it, believe me I do, but I think I've been holding back from letting myself want it fiercely and with passion, in case I mess it up, in case I fail. Why would I believe that I can truly do this when 35 years of history tells me I can't and that I'll fail? And how can I fail if I don't really believe I can do it? It makes it a self fullfilling prophesy I guess and links back to previous posts about how what we 'know to be true' about ourselves determines our actions. I knew way back when I had my light bulb moment that change would be hard and the work that would need to go into it mentally would be hard. And that before the trauma of August last year. So I need to work on Step 1 - want it more than anything else.

The bracelet Debbie gave me last weekend has lived on my wrist except for when I'm in the shower or sleeping. It's a wonderful reminder to stay on track. And I'm starting to get that trickle of self belief again - IF YOU CAN DREAM IT....you can achieve it! My new mantra. 
 
Step 1
WANT IT MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE:
I'll come back to this one...

Step 2
START (again):
So I bit the bullet and started again, yesterday. I made no announcement because I half expected to not do it. I did well with food - half the battle - but didn't exercise. Today I had a huge work day and went to bed knowing I needed every second to get ready for my day and getting up at 3:50am to run really wasn't going to happen, so exercise starts again tomorrow. Kate, I'll put a photo on instagram to prove I did!! Help keep me accountable.

Step 3
GET ORGANISED:
I spent a lot of time getting organised over the weekend. I made a big batch of Penang Chicken, a batch of Beef Strogenoff and froze them for meals when I'm home late or lunches. I'm planning another cook up this weekend too - now that I have a big freezer it's time to fill it!

Step 4
BE PREPARED:
This step is about preparing to fail - so that when you do you can get right back up again. I think that my resilience has been so seriously tested over the last couple of weeks that when I get a roll on again I'll bounce back quicker next time - I hope.. but my fail safes are blogging, the fb forums, Kate and Debbie. I'm also going to plan to go back and revisit my letter to myself whenever I'm feeling some doubt. I can do it. I just have to keep telling myself till I believe it. 

Step 5
WORK.HARD:
 It's time. It's really time. Noone else can put in the hard yards for me. Kate has set me a challenge. On the 30th of August we have a family reunion in Brisbane for my Dad's family. Kate wants me to drive with her to the Sunny Coast for the Marathon on the Sunday. She is convinced I could do a half (21odd kms) I think she's insane. I'm terrified of the thought, and maybe that's the key. Maybe I need to set some insanely crazy goal and just go for it. I'm not really sure. I do know that right now I take 45mins to run 5kms so there is n way in hell I could do 21kms in 3 hours (the time limit). I wouldn't care about coming in last, I think just finishing in the 3 hours would be an insane achievement for me but I don't think it's possible right now. I'm going to figure out a training schedule I can stick to and work it out closer to the time and after speaking with Marko about which one to sign up for. At the very least I will probably sign up for the 5km and 10km runs if they aren't on at the same time.

That just leaves....

Step 1
WANT IT MORE THAN ANYTHING ELSE:
If I could set any goal and achieve it no questions asked I would have two - get to goal weight and have a baby. Goal number two is going to need specialist assistance and would be greatly helped by goal number one. Deep down I do want it more than anything but wanting it so bad scares the hell out of me. As previously stated I have never set dates and kg targets for those dates. The only time I've done that was this round and I haven't done it. Perhaps it was a deliberate self sabotage, I haven't figured that one out yet, but our family reunion on the 30th of August gives me 23 weeks of hard work. Ideally I'd love to aim for a 1kg average loss per week but that might be expecting too much of myself. I can't seem to hold it together for 12 weeks how on earth could I sustain it for 23?? The alternative is to aim for a weight range. If I lose between 500g and 1kg on average this will put me between 80.9kgs and 92.5kgs.... When I wrote that number down my throat almost closed up with fear. I don't know what I'm afraid of, but that 80 seems so unachievable. Where is my self belief? I don't know....
 
I really think part of the problem is that I don't have a goal weight. Well I do, but I don't know whether it is realistic (the fourth part of a S.M.A.R.T. goal). Years ago on another program I was told for my height I should be 65-79kgs...I think 65 is RIDICULOUS but I've had 79 in my brain ever since. And that 79 was SO far off and SO unachievable I NEVER believed I could do it. I've 'known that to be true' for years. And so I recreate the cycle. I really need to either stop that merry-go-round or jump off, but in order to do that I need a goal weight. I've decided to get a DEXA scan done with my friend Debbie. I have emailed MeasureUp - Sydney based company - about getting the van up to Newcastle. I'm thinking for the Saturday before the colour run. I'm sure there are heaps of Newcastle 12wbters who'd love a scan done....hopefully.

Part of making myself really believe this is possible I will think up another catch phrase I can say. At the moment I'm repeating the bracelet phrase which worked today, but I need a few back up plans I think. I also think I need to get an outfit to aim for to wear to the Family Reunion - OMG that scares me. I don't know what size I'll even be. 

Breathe and Believe.....

I'll work on that....Might have to call in reinforcements for that one. I'm putting money in my goals jar again and this is the money I'll buy the outfit with I'm going to extend my chart to cover the next 23 weeks not in rounds but to get my head in the frame of mind that I'm focusing on 23 not 12 weeks this time. 

So, THE GOAL:

Is to lose between 11.5 and 23kgs in 23 weeks. Anything in that range will be considered success! This will put me at least in the low 90s for the family reunion, if not lower. 

I WILL ACHIEVE THIS BY:

1. Doing everything I can to put stickers on my chart - by focusing on meeting my targets each day for calories, water, exercise, max 1 coffee, max 1 pepsi, weekly mind set videos and bed before 10pm....Each sticker is worth $1. 7 stickers per day over 7 days over 23 weeks would put $1127 in my jar, IF I get all 7 every day. If I only manage 5 on average (totally NOT what I'm aiming for) I should still get $800. That will get me one kick ass outfit...well hopefully more than that. 

2. Thinking of a kick ass code name for my goal....nothing popping for me yet but I'll get to it...

3. Putting reminders of my goal on my pinboard at work and in my wallet where I look regularly, on my screen saver - might have to be in code though. I'll also wear the bangle every day. 

4. WORK. HARD. (thanks Kate)

5. BELIEVE IN MYSELF - faking it till I make it!!

5kms Same Day Same Time

The story of the 5kms Same Day Same Time challenge began a couple of weeks ago with a discussion on the 30+ facebook site about a Mini Milestone Challenge walk in Brisbane along the kakoda track at Mt Coot-tha. One of the girls wanted to give the 5km track a go but wanted some company. I would really have loved to have been able to jump on a plane and go up and do it with her but that seriously wasn't going to happen. 

I told her how Kate and I did the crazy adventure long distance together (read about that adventure here) and that we kept in contact via facebook and messages while doing the walk. She thought this was a great idea. Then I had a crazy thought, how cool would it be to have 12WBT members all over Australia doing a 5km walk/run on the same day and at the same time....and so the challenge was born. I floated the idea and got heaps of positive feedback so I created an event in the 12WBT 30+ crew page, on the Wide Bay page where I'm a member and on the Upper Hunter page I administer. 

And so it began!

Originally I planned to get a map of Australia and put pins in all the towns where participants were located but it quickly got too big, with a participant in New Zealand and one in United Kingdom, so I found a cool app that helped me show how cool we are!

It grew slowly, gathering momentum.

And grew some more,

until game day (today) arrived with 73 members agreeing to participate. I need to do the final map as there are a few spots missing in NSW on the above map. 

Until this morning I wasn't sure if I'd be doing my challenge alone or with company. Yesterday we were discussing it after our SSS. Mandy was planning on coming in but wasn't sure she'd make it due to having to clean her house in preparation for a thermomix party (which I was supposed to attend) and Debbie thought she might make it if her Hot Air Balloon flight was cancelled due to the rain. I had always planned on just doing the 5km track around town that I have been doing when I run on Monday and Wednesday, but then Debbie assumed I was going up the hill to the lookout. I told her I wasn't sure if it was a 5km walk or not and she said 'why not walk from town' laying down the challenge. 

What Debbie didn't know is that ever since my first walk up to the lookout, I have wanted to do it from town. I have been talked out of it twice, by well meaning friends who thought it wouldn't be safe walking along the side of the narrow road. As I went to bed I made a promise to myself. If Mandy came in, I would do the 5km around town with her, but if she didn't come in I'd do the walk up to the lookout from town. 

Now I had NO idea how far it was by foot from my house to the start of the walk up to the lookout, but as I said I have wanted to do this for over a year. 

I was very excited when I got up to see that the rain had stopped. I got ready, checked my phone - no message from Mandy, put my all terrain asics on (better soles for walking up the hill), checked my phone - no message from Mandy....decided to go for it. I packed extra water, an apple and a small towel in a back pack, super glued my poor polar's band back together and set off. 

 Ready to get going...

My polar band super glued back together AGAIN!

 

So off I went. I followed my usual path to start with before turning onto the road that would take me out of town towards the path to the lookout.

 

Enjoying the footpath while I could!

Only 15mins into my walk, my new bluetooth wireless earphones ran out of battery and died. NOT GOOD TIMING....so the rest of the walk was without my traditional fitness playlist!

Not happy!

Leaving the footpath and hitting the side of the road. 

On the left, lookout number 1, on the right the TV

tower and lookout number 2!!

I was pretty wary heading out along this road. It has a 100km speed limit and not a heap of room on the side of the road, which is how I was talked out of this challenge previously, BUT I walked on the right side so I could see any oncoming cars, I went when it was fully light and I only saw one car on the way out there!!! 

the view up the road

already feeling pretty good about this challenge!

I was please to see as I arrived at the base of the walk up to the lookout that I wasn't the only one out here on a Sunday overcast morning after heaps of rain doing this walk. I felt more confident knowing others were on the track too. At this point I realised how crazily I'd underestimated the distance, I'd already walked nearly 5kms...and I hadn't started going up...but I had decided to do it and so I would. I could hear Kate (CocoGirlButter) in my head telling me 'You've got this'. And so I kept going. I thought at this point I might only go as far as the first lookout.

 

I was a little more worried when I saw this...had there been a land slide and it wasn't safe? Well whoever had parked the car there was doing it so I figured they'd tell me when I saw them if it wasn't safe...and so I kept going!

I always feel a little overwelmed looking at this slope, it's so steep and quickly my calves start to complain, but today I didn't care so much. I knew that around the state and interstate there were around 70 others doing their walks and it spurred me on!

step by step, higher and higher

The view from Lookout 1!

Selfie at lookout 1.

I had toyed with the idea of just turning back after reaching lookout 1, but as I took my selfie with the view in the background, an old guy steamed past heading towards the top. I thought 'if he can I can too' and I kept going! Crazy? Stubborn? Yep but happy!

 

Looking up to the second lookout.

The second stage up the the TV aerial and lookout 2 is steeper. It's quite deceiving as you go down before you go up. It is steep and there are no spots where it levels out...just crazy. On my way up this bit I passed a lady on a horse - I told her it looked like a much easier way to get up to the lookout. I didn't think to get a picture until she had already gone!

This is my 'Are we there yet?' face....

Then I was there, at the top....8kms later...and I still had to go back! Gosh it felt awesome though. I had a quick stop, filled up my water bottle and got out my apple to eat on the way back down!!

 

Very happy to be at the top!

 

My delicious Pink Lady apple!!

And then it was time to go down. I met a lovely couple coming up as I went down (they caught up with me later) and to my dismay it started to spit and gradually got heavier. It wasn't torential but it was heavy enough that I wrapped my phone up (after taking the pic below) and put it safely in my back pack so it wouldn't get too wet. So that's why there aren't more photos coming down again. 

 

The whole walk ended up taking me 3 hours, I walked 16.5kms and burned 1445cals! Insanity! But it's something I've wanted to do since I moved here and I'm thrilled to have accomplished it. When I got home I had 20 minutes to make breakfast, have a shower and get ready to go to Mandy's for her thermomix demonstration - needless to say I was late for the demo. 
 

Proud as punch of my 1445calorie burn!

map my run snapshot!

The collages I posted in the 30+ site and on Instagram!

All the other participants had a wonderful time too and we are going to make this event a regular each round!! Very exciting!